' and my life. '

So about me..

I'm a 22 year old aspiring writer, with an unfortunate default. Or that's what I came to understand it as. I went from being the child everyone avoided, because I was weird an awkward, to the woman everyone wanted, because I'd learned how to manipulate their feelings on a soul level. They really felt, whatever I'd wanted them to.
I suppose you could call it, my Spiritual Awakening, and it happened when I was around 12. Right about when everything else began too. It started with just noticing how my skin reacted when different people were around, and how they were acting versus how I felt deep inside my body. At the time, I'd thought it was just my hormones, and someday everything would sort itself out. 
A few more years had passed and to my dismay, my feelings, and senses never went away. I could describe the sensation as a buzzing vibration, each emotion has it's own special setting. Each one kicking off different reactions from feeling sweat on the back of my neck, to a shakiness throughout my whole body. All normal, all healthy reactions to situations most humans go through. What was different about it, was that none of these emotions ever went along with my own thoughts. They also never happened when I was alone, or tuning out of whatever social gathering I'd forced myself to attend.
Focus, helped me to control to wayward TIDAL WAVE of emotions I used to be bombarded with. Then.. it got more interesting. I discovered that if I spent long enough, in psychical contact with someone else and focused and driving my desired emotion into them... (all without words) that I literally could get them to feel how I wanted. I could make someone I just met tell me they love me and want me for the rest of their lives. Or the exact opposite, if I chose that path.
My Empathic journey is far from over, and the more I understood people, the more I discovered I understood the Earth. I feel the Earths pain, joy, love, and changes. Assured that the feelings I sense from Earth are far more comforting than Her human counterpart, this is my solace. This is where I hid within.