Stepping down onto the dirt main street, you'd think you were being transported into an 1860s movie set. It's so picturesque and perfect for the time. The dirt, the slightly overgrown weeds climbing up through the boardwalk, the wooden buildings hardly showing any age at all. You barely notice the people running around excitedly except that they don't match the scene before you in their jeans and t-shirts. It's the feeling of knowing deep within you, this isn't a model, it's reality this city was real, it's history, all real.
Today we know Barkerville, B.C. as a tourist attraction we can visit in the summer months and get a feel for what the gold rush and life was really like back in the 1860s. However it began when Billy Barker, the towns namesake, struck it rich! Almost overnight the town went from a creek to a city boasting a population of 5,000. Most of the city burned in a great fire in 1868, but was rebuilt just 6 weeks later. The town consisted of a theatre, barbershop, restaurant, brothel, saloon, church, a few general stores, boarding houses.. and the oldest 'China Town' in Canada. As the gold dried up, most of the residents moved away. The last remaining resident leaving in 1958, after which it was turned into a historic site.
I'd done my homework before visiting the town. Naturally trying to absorb all the information that I could. So when we arrived I had thought there was no more I could really learn without going into the town itself and exploring. Thanks to it being transformed into a tourist attraction I was able to do exactly that! After the lengthy two hour drive it took to get there, I noticed the air at first, felt different. Not in an elevation way, but in an energy way. The closer we got the thicker and more intense the energy had become. I remember turning in my seat in the car wondering if I should tell my husband to turn around and take me home. Unfortunately I could feel him brimming with excitement, so I chose not to mention anything.
When we finally arrived, I had the most intense headache, my entire body was aching and trembling. There was just so much that it was hard to take. Most of the city was a blur, I didn't really see much of whatever my ex husband had been looking at. I more or less wandered around feeling. It's unclear if what it was, was residual or the actual residents of the city never left at all.
There was pain, and anger throughout the courthouse. No matter which direction I turned I couldn't escape it. Men I didn't recognise were whispering and I could feel the shock in one, as if he hadn't known why he was brought into court at all. Originally I would have assumed that we were just bystanders to a play court, until I focused a little and noticed save for the two "clerks" we were alone in the large open room. Leaving that unpleasantness behind we moved on to the brothel... his unfortunate main attraction. On the outside, it seemed innocent enough, and most of it's barred off to begin with, essentially you walk in and peer into the rooms that are left in such condition you'd think at any moment a saloon girl might whiz past you and lay with a rich drunken traveller. Again though, what I read was pain. Excitement, lust, but also pain. These women, weren't what they appeared to be on the outside. The next memorable stop on our tour was the Royal theatre. It was quiet at the time but the peace that filled me was incredible. I could feel the piano at my fingertips, despite being nowhere near any. The music and the joy of that one place is astounding. However pleasant.. here. This is where Spirit decided to show itself. Dull at first, then more vividly, there was a man. He appeared to be resting, and staring at the stage. He didn't speak once, or look my way. Just nodded in the direction he was facing, and disappeared. I didn't feel as threatened when we were exiting the theatre, but I was exhausted. The very last place we decided to look (after running around aimlessly) was the graveyard. A short hike out of the little town. Which had been strange to me, I'm accustomed to being in graveyards, and they typical do feel quite peaceful and serene. All I could sense here was confusion. Feeling confusion and being confused is quite a thing to be. From the start, an Empaths feelings hardly ever match up with what they are thinking. However I could truly not understand why there would be confusion here.
After leaving, and dare I say I was glad to go, I realised just how haunted Barkerville truly is. The energies around it so intense and magnetic it's understandably a place worth seeing, but definitely not staying.
Friday, 12 June 2015
A Beginning.. of sorts
About 7 or 8 years ago now, me and my ex husband had gone for a drive into the bush. Something typical we always did on a day where neither of us had to work or do anything around the house. We'd grab the back road map, fill the tank with gas and go. Our usual destination would be lakes far off in the boonies, even though we had no intention of ever swimming in them.
On this particular day though, we'd left the safety of our pickup to hike up to some waterfalls. We ended up stumbling across what we thought might be a hunters cabin. There was no glass on the windows, the thing must've been old, but neither of us knew how to identify how old it really was. Noting that the area inside was barely large enough for a fully grown men to stretch out head to toe and not touch the walls. The floor had been filled with pine needles from the years of neglect, and the were the wire coils remaining from what used to be a mattress leaning part way on one wall. On our left when we turned to leave, we saw the markings left by people some recent, some as early as 1980s for what we could make out. There were many more too illegible to read.
Upon leaving we chatted excitedly about what old buildings and historic sites we knew of in our area, and made the decision to research them all once we got back home.
So this, this became the beginning of a hobby for us.
I wasn't as, let's say.. awakened, when we came across the cabin that day. I wasn't centering in the cabin and trying to pick up on the general energy inside of it, in real facts I was trying not to get eaten alive by mosquitos.
On this particular day though, we'd left the safety of our pickup to hike up to some waterfalls. We ended up stumbling across what we thought might be a hunters cabin. There was no glass on the windows, the thing must've been old, but neither of us knew how to identify how old it really was. Noting that the area inside was barely large enough for a fully grown men to stretch out head to toe and not touch the walls. The floor had been filled with pine needles from the years of neglect, and the were the wire coils remaining from what used to be a mattress leaning part way on one wall. On our left when we turned to leave, we saw the markings left by people some recent, some as early as 1980s for what we could make out. There were many more too illegible to read.
Upon leaving we chatted excitedly about what old buildings and historic sites we knew of in our area, and made the decision to research them all once we got back home.
So this, this became the beginning of a hobby for us.
I wasn't as, let's say.. awakened, when we came across the cabin that day. I wasn't centering in the cabin and trying to pick up on the general energy inside of it, in real facts I was trying not to get eaten alive by mosquitos.
Empathic and Psychic
Already explaining what an Empath really does, here's a skill they can learn if they chose. They must keep in mind though that it requires a lot of focus and time to really learn. They can 'feel' ghosts. So to be completely honest, I'm not sure if it's they, or just me. Everyone I have met so far has had some weird difference that sets them apart considering the few commonalities. What I have felt, and it's grown with my power, is the ability to pick up on the ambient energy in any given room. It will always be there, pulsing through the walls, making it feel alive. This is one thing everyone training to read or feel energy needs to be aware of. It is EVERYWHERE around us. The key is, to gauge what is normal and what isn't in a given space. A cabin with no electricity will have considerably less energy than a booming hotel filled with patrons. I have a difficult time explaining the difference between emotions that I read from people, and the energies I read from spirits. Essentially I am feeling the spirits emotion, but it's so subtle it comes in more of a buzz. To an untrained person, this is what causes the hair on the back of your neck to stand up, or your adrenaline to start flowing. Your body is sensing what your conscious mind cannot detect.
So now you know what my definition of energy is. Now here's the real psychic part. If you sat in a room, completely alone, and attuned yourself to the natural energy in the room. You'd know, no matter how many times you walked into that room how it felt. Imagine the subtlest change, maybe it's just a quick breeze or maybe it's a lingering presence but it's there. With your Empathic ability you instantly notice the change, even before your conscious mind is aware of it. You'll feel that tingling inside of you well before you feel it on the outside. Contain it. Will yourself to hold on to it for as long as you can, holding your body completely still if you have to. I won't say to visualize a connection, because with an Empath we do all our hard work through our heart, form a bond with that presence, hold it close. The stronger that bond becomes the more likely you'll be able to communicate. By that very same focused bond, you can always call that spirit back to you, or set it free if you chose using the same method of drawing the energy in. There's no need to fear it either, it's completely controlled by you.
In my own experience, the first one came to me while I was at a state of unrest. I had been making my ex husband his lunch at 3:30am, preparing to wake him up soon to head to work. Before even walking out to the kitchen I had felt strange, I remember turning all the lights on in the kitchen hallway and bathroom of our house. I did need to make sure he had his sandwiches and tea though, so there was no turning back. I set about turning on the kettle and getting all the supplies for sandwiches out and setting them on the counter. Trying to ignore the feeling I finished and turned to go pour the water for tea, while my back had been turned to the window I heard distinctly what sounded like heavy work boots walking on to the front deck, and up to the door we never used. Thinking maybe someone was trying to break in I ran down the hall and woke up my ex, explaining to him what I had heard and begging him to go investigate. Thinking if he's set the leave... he's making sure we are safe first. He donned his boots, and went outside in the snow to look. He searched around for a few minutes and came back in staring at me, with the most confused look I have ever seen. Telling me with absolute honesty, there were no boot prints in the snow leading to the deck. There were no marks at all anywhere. Playing along I asked him to step out on the deck and walk around so I could compare the noises. Well, his 6ft tall, 190lb body, with steel toed work boots... was a lighter noise. The only solution was whatever had made the noises was heavier than him. At the time, fear was running through every part of me and the 'logical' part of my brain said none of it made sense. Each time after though, I realized there was a pattern. I'd feel anxious mostly, but not overwhelmingly so. Then my sense would kick in to over drive, then I'd either hear, or see. What that as it is, we control what we need to. If it doesn't feel right, ask it to leave. If you recognise the feeling hold it close, form that bond, and call to spirit for guidance. Spirit will never lead you wrong.
So now you know what my definition of energy is. Now here's the real psychic part. If you sat in a room, completely alone, and attuned yourself to the natural energy in the room. You'd know, no matter how many times you walked into that room how it felt. Imagine the subtlest change, maybe it's just a quick breeze or maybe it's a lingering presence but it's there. With your Empathic ability you instantly notice the change, even before your conscious mind is aware of it. You'll feel that tingling inside of you well before you feel it on the outside. Contain it. Will yourself to hold on to it for as long as you can, holding your body completely still if you have to. I won't say to visualize a connection, because with an Empath we do all our hard work through our heart, form a bond with that presence, hold it close. The stronger that bond becomes the more likely you'll be able to communicate. By that very same focused bond, you can always call that spirit back to you, or set it free if you chose using the same method of drawing the energy in. There's no need to fear it either, it's completely controlled by you.
In my own experience, the first one came to me while I was at a state of unrest. I had been making my ex husband his lunch at 3:30am, preparing to wake him up soon to head to work. Before even walking out to the kitchen I had felt strange, I remember turning all the lights on in the kitchen hallway and bathroom of our house. I did need to make sure he had his sandwiches and tea though, so there was no turning back. I set about turning on the kettle and getting all the supplies for sandwiches out and setting them on the counter. Trying to ignore the feeling I finished and turned to go pour the water for tea, while my back had been turned to the window I heard distinctly what sounded like heavy work boots walking on to the front deck, and up to the door we never used. Thinking maybe someone was trying to break in I ran down the hall and woke up my ex, explaining to him what I had heard and begging him to go investigate. Thinking if he's set the leave... he's making sure we are safe first. He donned his boots, and went outside in the snow to look. He searched around for a few minutes and came back in staring at me, with the most confused look I have ever seen. Telling me with absolute honesty, there were no boot prints in the snow leading to the deck. There were no marks at all anywhere. Playing along I asked him to step out on the deck and walk around so I could compare the noises. Well, his 6ft tall, 190lb body, with steel toed work boots... was a lighter noise. The only solution was whatever had made the noises was heavier than him. At the time, fear was running through every part of me and the 'logical' part of my brain said none of it made sense. Each time after though, I realized there was a pattern. I'd feel anxious mostly, but not overwhelmingly so. Then my sense would kick in to over drive, then I'd either hear, or see. What that as it is, we control what we need to. If it doesn't feel right, ask it to leave. If you recognise the feeling hold it close, form that bond, and call to spirit for guidance. Spirit will never lead you wrong.
Thursday, 11 June 2015
' and my life. '
So about me..
I'm a 22 year old aspiring writer, with an unfortunate default. Or that's what I came to understand it as. I went from being the child everyone avoided, because I was weird an awkward, to the woman everyone wanted, because I'd learned how to manipulate their feelings on a soul level. They really felt, whatever I'd wanted them to.
I suppose you could call it, my Spiritual Awakening, and it happened when I was around 12. Right about when everything else began too. It started with just noticing how my skin reacted when different people were around, and how they were acting versus how I felt deep inside my body. At the time, I'd thought it was just my hormones, and someday everything would sort itself out.
A few more years had passed and to my dismay, my feelings, and senses never went away. I could describe the sensation as a buzzing vibration, each emotion has it's own special setting. Each one kicking off different reactions from feeling sweat on the back of my neck, to a shakiness throughout my whole body. All normal, all healthy reactions to situations most humans go through. What was different about it, was that none of these emotions ever went along with my own thoughts. They also never happened when I was alone, or tuning out of whatever social gathering I'd forced myself to attend.
Focus, helped me to control to wayward TIDAL WAVE of emotions I used to be bombarded with. Then.. it got more interesting. I discovered that if I spent long enough, in psychical contact with someone else and focused and driving my desired emotion into them... (all without words) that I literally could get them to feel how I wanted. I could make someone I just met tell me they love me and want me for the rest of their lives. Or the exact opposite, if I chose that path.
My Empathic journey is far from over, and the more I understood people, the more I discovered I understood the Earth. I feel the Earths pain, joy, love, and changes. Assured that the feelings I sense from Earth are far more comforting than Her human counterpart, this is my solace. This is where I hid within.
I'm a 22 year old aspiring writer, with an unfortunate default. Or that's what I came to understand it as. I went from being the child everyone avoided, because I was weird an awkward, to the woman everyone wanted, because I'd learned how to manipulate their feelings on a soul level. They really felt, whatever I'd wanted them to.
I suppose you could call it, my Spiritual Awakening, and it happened when I was around 12. Right about when everything else began too. It started with just noticing how my skin reacted when different people were around, and how they were acting versus how I felt deep inside my body. At the time, I'd thought it was just my hormones, and someday everything would sort itself out.
A few more years had passed and to my dismay, my feelings, and senses never went away. I could describe the sensation as a buzzing vibration, each emotion has it's own special setting. Each one kicking off different reactions from feeling sweat on the back of my neck, to a shakiness throughout my whole body. All normal, all healthy reactions to situations most humans go through. What was different about it, was that none of these emotions ever went along with my own thoughts. They also never happened when I was alone, or tuning out of whatever social gathering I'd forced myself to attend.
Focus, helped me to control to wayward TIDAL WAVE of emotions I used to be bombarded with. Then.. it got more interesting. I discovered that if I spent long enough, in psychical contact with someone else and focused and driving my desired emotion into them... (all without words) that I literally could get them to feel how I wanted. I could make someone I just met tell me they love me and want me for the rest of their lives. Or the exact opposite, if I chose that path.
My Empathic journey is far from over, and the more I understood people, the more I discovered I understood the Earth. I feel the Earths pain, joy, love, and changes. Assured that the feelings I sense from Earth are far more comforting than Her human counterpart, this is my solace. This is where I hid within.
The Connection Between Virgos and Empaths
The Virgo.. the servant, the sign of healing, love and care for all. A critical thinker the Virgo tends to silently observe and connect with those nearby. The need to correct ones own imperfections comes out more in the ability to correct others. As most are a reflection inside of Virgo.
Is there more to this reflection than originally thought? Understand what it means to be an Empath, it isn't chosen and it isn't a welcome gift. It is a pain staking, living your entire life feeling and touching everyone else's lives, bringing your own up short from the exhaustion it causes to either keep up the barrier, or to let it go.
Quite in the same way being a Virgo isn't a choice. We are born when our souls are ready to be freed into the world, when we are ready to rejoin our brothers and sisters on an earthly plane and be reborn. Is there are a connection between the two?
To our knowledge, every child is born empathetic. If you've ever read a baby book, or talked to a counsellor they will tell you, "A child/infant picks up on the feelings and environment they're in." Well where do you think that came from? But maybe.. just maybe, some signs are destined to hold tight to their nature, while others develop abilities in other areas.
We could look at another comparison, between Gemini and Persuasion. Gemini's are known for being lusty and charismatic. that much any human can understand, but most share the ability to literally "talk you into things" and this is a very literal example of persuasion. Not just the bribery version, or convincing someone that they need to, literally taking away their free will and making them see your way. (I'll admit I haven't studied this enough to understand if it's intentional.)
I encourage my readers, to share their experiences. Have you ever noticed something strange, something you could do, that nobody seems to understand?
Is there more to this reflection than originally thought? Understand what it means to be an Empath, it isn't chosen and it isn't a welcome gift. It is a pain staking, living your entire life feeling and touching everyone else's lives, bringing your own up short from the exhaustion it causes to either keep up the barrier, or to let it go.
Quite in the same way being a Virgo isn't a choice. We are born when our souls are ready to be freed into the world, when we are ready to rejoin our brothers and sisters on an earthly plane and be reborn. Is there are a connection between the two?
To our knowledge, every child is born empathetic. If you've ever read a baby book, or talked to a counsellor they will tell you, "A child/infant picks up on the feelings and environment they're in." Well where do you think that came from? But maybe.. just maybe, some signs are destined to hold tight to their nature, while others develop abilities in other areas.
We could look at another comparison, between Gemini and Persuasion. Gemini's are known for being lusty and charismatic. that much any human can understand, but most share the ability to literally "talk you into things" and this is a very literal example of persuasion. Not just the bribery version, or convincing someone that they need to, literally taking away their free will and making them see your way. (I'll admit I haven't studied this enough to understand if it's intentional.)
I encourage my readers, to share their experiences. Have you ever noticed something strange, something you could do, that nobody seems to understand?
Modern Empath
Empath (Definition) A person with the paranormal ability to apprehend the mental or emotional state of another individual.
The stuff of science fiction they said. Oooh, some even called me crazy and told me I needed to be locked away in a mental hospital or be put on some heavy duty pill that will make me a vegetable. To a degree, I agree. I am definitely different, a human with unnatural skills beyond the understanding of a lesser being. Though intelligent, I am probably not. I didn't go to Harvard, or Yale.. or any university of the like. I didn't even graduate high school.
The stuff of science fiction they said. Oooh, some even called me crazy and told me I needed to be locked away in a mental hospital or be put on some heavy duty pill that will make me a vegetable. To a degree, I agree. I am definitely different, a human with unnatural skills beyond the understanding of a lesser being. Though intelligent, I am probably not. I didn't go to Harvard, or Yale.. or any university of the like. I didn't even graduate high school.
So put aside the idea that I am reading body language and deciding how I 'think' you may feel according to a mathematical format designed by psychologists. It's not only that I can sense your feelings, I can tell you without looking at you that you're angry, upset, depressed, overjoyed or even sexually stimulated. Sometimes, your emotions may be so strong that I can sense your exact thoughts, and predict your actions. There's no scientific format for predicting the future. They've tried for centuries and lets face it.. it's not accurate. People are either as random or predictable as they choose to be. However an Empath, rather a particularly strong one has that ability. Psychics we are not. There's no speaking to the dead and asking about what will happen, and I can't get you answers about the afterlife. What we can do, is pick up on varying frequencies in your emotions, and find a rhythm inside of them you may not even know exists.
How useful is it to read someone else's emotions? Picture an angry, confused person standing alone in a crowded area. Unsure of which direction to go they get increasingly agitated and refuse to move despite the rustle of movement surrounding them. An empath would not only notice this, when no other human would, they would be able to draw the negative energy from the person, easing their mind and able to set them on their way. It's not that they'd ever know, it's a taboo thing to mention that you can feel the emotions around you.
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